I realise I haven’t written anything here in a long, long time. And I am truly sorry for that, to myself more than anything else. I know not a lot of people really read this blog anyway, it was always firstly a way for me to get things off my chest and try to make some sort of sense of everything. The last few months have been crazy for me; first of all I made the decision to take a break from uni, and come back to finish my degree this academic year (in about two weeks time to be precise!) I also got an internship at a marketing and digital company in central London, as a social media management intern. It was a really good experience, and I enjoyed it a lot, but after two months, and when my contract for my flat in halls was coming to an end, I decided that I needed to have the summer off for some ‘me’ time.
So I packed up my stuff, and came to York, where I have been staying for the past two months. It’s been nice to relax, and laze about, and write (I have been writing honestly, just not my blog) and recharge properly. I haven’t had a summer to myself really in quite a while, and I think my healing process wasn’t quite done when I tried to jump straight back into life in April. I was burning out from my commute and the fact that I had almost no free time, being out of the flat from about 7 am to 7 pm. Now that I have had a lot of thinking time, away from the horrible loneliness and memories that were tied to my old room, I feel much, much better and stronger. I am ready to really move forward, and take my next steps. I am looking for somewhere to live, I don’t think I can face halls again, you’re surrounded by people but it can feel so lonely sometimes. I want my own little bit of space, even if it’s only my room with a bed and a desk and all of my things. I can put posters up and buy pretty bedding and make my little writing den/film watching cave. I also really want a coffee maker….
Anyway I digress. I have had time off from pretty much everything, and now I am getting ready to come back with even more of that drive than I have ever had before. I am making a plan, and this year will be my year. One of the steps in my plan is to pick up my blogging again, so I will be posting again from this moment forward. New month, new academic year, new start. I always like New Years’ Resolutions, but I like plain old resolutions just as much, if not more. Making a resolve to do something outside of the lovely clean slate of a new year I think takes extra guts, and determination to actually see it through, I see it as more special because not everyone is doing the same thing as you at the same time. So without further ado, here are my new me resolutions, beginning from now. Hold me accountable if you like internet, it might just help!
Jenny’s New (academic) Year Resolutions
- Keep up with this blog, writing at least a post a week
- Plot out my novel idea ready for NaNoWriMo
- Show people my poems, and get feedback
- Attend more Word. nights at my SU
- Look for internships for graduation (!)
- Keep in touch with my friends more
I also plan on starting a YouTube channel, but I know that might take a while, so I won’t put that up just yet. I am really excited for this year, and feel like I am growing and learning so much about myself, and that is making me stronger. I am feeling more and more positive every day, something which four or five months ago I couldn’t really contemplate properly, as I was in such a bleak state of mind. But now the sun is out and I am ready to take on the world! In the words of Katy Perry; I am a champion, and you’re gonna hear me roar!
What are your resolutions? Did you make some in the New Year? Have you stuck with them? Share your stories in the comments!